Welcome To The Breaking Point
You can't perform quickly with razor-sharp efficiency all the time. Perfection in that regard is just not possible. As you are constantly testing the upper bounds of possibility, you will sometimes step over the line.
You will break under the stress.
You will freak out.
It's important to acknowledge the emotion and what has happened. Sometimes you just break. Life can be really very overwhelming to someone addicted to achievement.
Calm Down.
Shut everything down. Shut off the feeds, the twitter, your phone, the TV news. None of that is important. Trust me, it will not explode if you leave it be for a few hours. It probably will chug along happily without you for a few days as you recover your sanity.
Remember the goal. The end goal is happiness, and to get there you need to focus on being happy EVERY DAY. You need to focus on being happy TODAY.
1) Let it out.
Find a safe place where you can be alone. Scream and cry. Acknowledge that you've pushed yourself too hard, you're broken now. You've got to break completely before you can begin the recovery process. Acknowledge that it will take a few days for you to get back to your peak performance. Be okay with that. Pushing now will only make the problem worse.
2) First let go of the anger.
There will be anger and sadness. Sadness slows you down, but anger actually damages the things around you. Every time something pokes at you and starts causing rage, try to suppress it with logic. The annoying stuck door is not a crisis. That is not what is actually bothering you, screaming and punching people is not helping anything or anyone. Breathe, Breathe.
It's okay to be sad for awhile. Accept that you are going to have a sad day, and tell yourself that it is okay. You are sad. It doesn't need a reason, it might not make sense. As long as you are not angry, be okay with sad.
3) Forget your original task list.
That was a "stretch" task list, and you've stretched too far. Turn off the timer. Try to stay out of meetings. Don't think about goals. Don't think about what others think. Just breathe. Just be.
4) Write a list of only the small things that need to get done
- everything that absolutely MUST to get done and overwith and out of your way. Put away all your longer term goals, stretch goals, working-for-the-distant-future goals. You're in recovery. You just need to get by.
5) Get by.
Tell yourself that you're going to clean today and get things off your list. That today you're just going to be sad and survive.
6) Act.
Move slowly and deliberately. Get things done in the slowest, calmest way that you possibly can. Be sad, be calm.
At the end of the day, if you managed to go the whole day just being sad and not angry, evaluate how your day went. Did the world explode without you performing at your miracle, superspeed level?
No.
When you're bored with being sad, get back to the things that make you happy.